Sentiments...

i had a dream last night. actually it was more of a recollection of my younger days for me only that, they worked with my subconscious mind. i don't really wanna start my sentiments with you but since am beginning to be fond of sharing my thoughts here, i see no reason why not. the dream was about my family. i remember when we were all still depending on our now-old parents, we go out of town almost every month. we'd always dine together. like what traditional families do, we start off with a prayer and end with long talks of just about anything. we we're not usually contented with after-meal talks. we used to spend hours just lounging at the living room over some shows. by late night, i used to fall asleep over a film or show. one of my elder brothers or my father would carry me to my room and put me to bed. man..i loved that part so much that i remember pretending to be asleep. i enjoyed every single moment of my growing years.. i really had my days with my family.. they were everything to me. but now it's so much different. for one, my brothers and sisters have their own families anow, except me and the youngest one. i so miss them and the days we had together. i still carry the same feeling of longing for them. although i know for sure that this is how it's gonna be, it's like i can never get used to being away from them. my family is a big part me.. in the way i see life, in the way i have set my standard of a relationship, and in just the way i am. and for that i am even happier and more grateful because it was that standard and it was for the person i have become that led me to my now-fiancé.. i may not be able to live with my family forever but i have Richard to keep me going. i celebrate in the future that i have ahead with him and the family we will build...